Shutting the F*ck Up

[BrightFuture]

Portia, I could feel your pain when you said he was “shopping for an OW”. What I wanted to know if he gave you any reason why he was looking for an OW and didn’t want to be in R with you. Did you have fights, disagreements? Was he just not happy? sigh… Did he blame you for anything that was not working in your relationship?

You said “I truly believe that the MLCer does not let go of the LBS until they have a solid back up.” I’ve heard this a lot. I thought that my H didn’t have any OW at the time of BD. My friend in Mexico was trying to convince me that that woman who I confronted H about was just a good friend of his. This is what H told him last year. I still think that she was EA or potential EA he was thinking about. I don’t know what happened, but this didn’t go anywhere and it looks like she is not in the picture anymore.

I wish that my H would be gone from my head and heart too. Sometimes I wake up with the fear that it might not happen and I will be having these “phantom feelings” forever.