RealityTrip is back from her voyage into "Me" Land

[RealityTrip]

Thanks NG. You are right. So is Bug. It's about letting her transform at her own pace... if she's going to at all.

It's been a weird couple of days. Those two convo's took place on two separate days. Yesterday she curled up in her chair under a blanket and watched me decorate the Christmas tree and the house. Not being in the spirit or wanting to help. I didn't ask or push. I know surgery tomorrow has her anxious. I know somewhere in there is grieving over AP and wondering if she made the right decision again coming home.

It's all just so much. When she first got here the first three weeks were awesome, now this extended "funk", and I don't want to ask or pry or push... her to communicate, but I feel like Tigger living with Eyore. Add in the fact that I am still sick and because she is having surgery she can't sleep with me (if she gets sick they will cancel it) so there's a slight disconnect even though it's my choice and for her physical well being.

The conversations have shown me just how much I've changed. And just how far she has to go...

And yeah... the "adult" comment. I could see her surprise in her own face as she heard it coming out of her mouth. That self-control moment alone defined my entire process! LOL!!!!