Divorce on the table, Hoping for miracle

[Groov]

Had a good weekend with the Kids, Picked up a christmas tree and set it up, went to a kids workshop and did some woodworking, decorated the home, went to the move Frozen finished off by going to the Salt Lake City Temple square and looked and at the lights and taught the kids about Christ.

Had a good time at church, Taught a lesson on loving god more than the world. I took some of the principles to heart. Wish I would have a long time ago....

My parents and brother surprised me by bring sunday evening dinner over. While they were there W shows up to pick up the kids. W acted like the W I have always known.... She saw the decorations and noticed a Nativity set. She make a comment how that was new and she hadn't seen it before... Well... I reminded her that I gave that to her last year on Christmas Eve, It took a moment... but finally she recognized it. Weird...

I helped get the kids out the door and wished W well. That night Kids call for nightly scripture and prayer. W wants to talk afterward. So she Talks more about the D and the Financials and getting the ducks in a row... I had such a PMA before this phone call. After the call, couldn't sleep. UGGG.... My wife is an alien, someone so loving toward me and now she is ICE...

I am keeping positive, I am validating. I am being patient. I am praying hard. It's hard to see her treat me this way. I cannot control her, so here I am rolling with the punches.

I am having a hard time with what points to protect myself on this D, I don't want to become adversarial and make it harder in the future for a Reconciliation... at the same time I need to make sure I am protected...

These are the experiences and thoughts of my heart.

Hoping for a miracle... still....


Groov