Patience has been the key to this whole thing for me. And I have not always been the most patient person in the world.

Journaling -

Last night H came over at 5 and asked if there was anything going on. I said no but then whispered to him that I might take the kids to the drive in. (They have never been and many drive-ins are closing due to land values)

He said that he wasn't really interested and wanted to go to a friends to finish tiling his bathroom floor. (He gutted and redid the whole thing)

So I had the kids put on sweat and sweatshirts, get the pillow and blanket and get in my truck for a mystery trip. They were so suprised when we got to the drive in - and it was showing Scooby Doo 2.

At 8:oo I had S3 call daddy to say goodnight. He left a voice message saying that he was calling to say goodnight and that we were at the movie that starts at the dark.

H calls back about 8:30 - just as the movie was starting - and talked to each child. Then he talked to me and seemed disappointed that he wasn't with us. I said sorry, but I didn't think you were interested. He said that I hadn't said that I was for sure taking them. He said that's allright and maybe I'll see you later.

Then he mentioned he had laundry to do and remembered that he needed to go back to his office to retrieve a map for Saturday. He said he'd likely be at the house when we got home.

He was there when we got home, helped get the kids in and to bed. Then he and I watched the news and Leno. I put my jams on and went into the bedroom - he followed and then we .

He went to a friend's cabin today to help roof it. D9 has a hockey game at 8:30 p.m. and he said he'd try to make it back.

Now, officially, it is my weekend. But the line has long since blurred on that. He is here every weekend and most week nights.

Last night he mentioned that he has one more project to finish for a friend - a shed, then he'd get back to working on our house.

So I need to keep the PMA up, the patience up and keep on acting "AS IF".

Wish me luck folks. Keep me in your prayers and I will do the same.

totite "Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative..."