This whole situation is torturing. It was back to not feeling hungry again all weekend. I forced myself to eat a few times, but other than that I just felt sick.
I don't want to lose more weight, but I don't know how to get to the point where I feel physically hungry again. Nothing sounds good, nothing tastes good.
I'm definitely in a raw emotional state right now. And I'm trying to halt any big decisions until I can really think about them.
I don't know if I have what it takes to work on this right now. Knowing that she has already begun another life with someone else has sucked every feeling of hope from me. It haunts me.
I know that I have to continue to work on me for my own sake and sanity. And of course my D is top priority.
