She called me on the way to work crying again. She misses me so much over the past few days but doesn't know if thats just missing me being around or if 'we are supposed to be together.' She wishes she didn't sign a year lease on the apartment, she wished she did a month to month furnished apartment like I suggested. She thinks she made a mistake and is ready to end the affair. She said as soon as she moved out and was really on her own, she realized that she didn't want the OM anymore.
So I told her we could talk more about it tonight when she comes to get a few things. I think that she needs to stay in her apartment more and really take some time. Not 5 days ago, she was telling me that she could see a future with him more easily than she could with me, that she thought she loved him and that she and I were really just friends. I do not want her to come back too quickly and then after 3 weeks, we're back to that.
I also don't want to push her away if she is in fact sincere. I just think that she needs to feel a little more loss and a little more life without me to make sure that this isnt just a reaction.
She's in a rough spot and has been talking and crying to her father a lot. He's coming out this weekend to spend some time with her and I told her that I would be available if she wanted me to spend some time with them as well. I still didn't get a solid commitment that the affair is over so I have to tread lightly here....
Me:38 W:39 No Children BD: 5/13 EA/PA Confirmed: 7/13 W Moved out 12/13
