This is the main reason for No Contact at this point:

I can't really stand to be around her right now. When she talks to me I just want to be mean and nasty.

She tried talking to me last night, and I told her to leave me alone. I asked in a mean way... Why don't you stay at your boyfriends house.

I know I shoulnd't have. It's childish. It's terrible integrity. I just dont want to be around her.


You're running on pure raw emotion, nothing bad will happen if you don't talk to her (other than about D) for 2 weeks.

Give yourself time to let the emotion die down. Be good to yourself and by doing that you're also helping D.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss