I understand the NC thing, but right now she still lives at home (she has a room at home, and she is there once in a while). She refuses to leave because she thinks I will use it against her in court. That I say she abandoned her D.
Not that I would do that. I strongly believe that D needs both of us in her life.
I ended up going to a christmas party on Saturday. It was with all of my college friends and their significant others. When I showed up everyone was being overly nice. They made no mention of where my W was. I could tell by the way some of them were looking at me, that they knew. They wanted to talk to me but didn't want to bring it up.
At that point I just said screw it. I addressed the issue. I let everyone know that W had left me. That I was having a very hard time, but I still love her. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
Sadly, another one of my friends stood up, and told everyone that his W left him in September. Everyone was shocked. He said that he didn't want anyone to know, but after seeing how I was able to just come out with it, it allowed him to just let it go.
Everyone was honestly great. They all had the same thing to say. We love you, we are here for you, and the one thing you need to do above all is take care of D!!!!
Myself and the other guy had a really long talk about everything. It was insane. It was like we were telling the same story, same timeline, same situation (EA/PA).
I let him know that if he needed anything, I was there. We both have the same problem, So I DO know what he's going through.
My outlook on everything has changed dramatically. Where before I couldn't wait for a text/call/email from my W, Now I dread them. It hurts when I see her name.
I can't really stand to be around her right now. When she talks to me I just want to be mean and nasty.
She tried talking to me last night, and I told her to leave me alone. I asked in a mean way... Why don't you stay at your boyfriends house.
I know I shoulnd't have. It's childish. It's terrible integrity. I just dont want to be around her.
