Look what the cat dragged in! (TL) - Act 2

[tigerlily78]

I don't really care that much about the lock, I just found it an interesting development. Like all those emotional walls he built for years should now be a physical door with a lock to "keep me out."

I think I can see at the moment that he is wanting to make another incremental transition towards OW, probably because she gave him a key to her place and life is still so fun... maybe thats just what he felt like the past 4 days or so since her birthday, I am sure it was "magical" and all that. More fun than being here the other day and admitting that no one seems as happy in this situation as he thought they would be. (hmmph)

I am trying hard to psyche myself up with the homecourt advantage speech. We have 16 years together, a son, a nice home we share, I am actually a really good catch. I can be patient and accept that things will probably seem to get "worse" in the OW department before they get better... he has to walk that journey in order to learn some things. I won't like it, but I will accept it. I will deal with it.

Ultimately I have to trust the process. He has to be free to make this decision and live it out. I am not going to let these increments make me lose my cool anymore (I REALLY mean it this time, honest to God. I will wear duct tape if I have to). I still have son, I still have the house, I will be okay while he does this. And with hard work, luck and perseverance we might even be better off *together* in the future if we can both make it through this. Holding on to that hope, looking ahead, working it day by day.

Tomorrow hoping I can get to the library. Therapy. Boy Scouts. Busy day.