I think this is a good opportunity for you to look at your own issues.

Why is a white light Martha Stewart Christmas better then a colored lights Griswold Christmas? Why do you wish you were Martha Stewart-like and not who you are?

This is something I needed to figure out as well. But now after 2 yrs of my own recovery I know who I am so so so much more then when I started. I know that I am a colored lights kind of girl now. I used to want to be white lights (like my exH) but now I just am who I am and love it.

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M 39
H 35
D5,D4
M 4
T 9
ILYBNILWY 5/18/11
Left 7/11/11
Divorced 12/1/13