I know that it must seem impossible or even wrong to forgive a serial cheater. But like you said, I knew his cheating had nothing to do with ME personally.
I regret that I spent so much time and energy just spinning my wheels , being angry, resentful, and depressed . I should have been oming on or forward in some other way, because that wasn't working.
I'm not sure when but I actually do believe the cheating stopped. Probably for a mixture of reasons. Consequences, guilt, and possibly ED.
I realized awhile ago that for all of his bravado and highprofile positions...he is a very insecure man, in constant need of validation. I also realized only recently that ...
He has always apologized to myself and my daughter, for transgressions big and small by buying us things. So, that shows me that although stuff and money isn't part of love for me, it is for him. And I didn't give him that.
Anyway, I'm not a doormat but I could have forgiven him. I chose not to. And actually, it just became a habit.
I am no walk in the park. I need a lot of self improvement. I asked God years ago to send me a partner. Not a perfect partner, but MY partner. And He did. And it's this man. When we were good, we were very special.
I'm not positive about anything in life right now. I am stepping to the plate. I need to be independent and I also need to share his financial burden, however it was caused.
