Today D14 started getting out the Christmas decorations and it's a hodge podge of collected stuff and pillow and throws and santas etc. Always very cozy and eclectic.
Well, H comes over today and comments how lovely and warm it is (he is a white light kind of guy) and then says D must have inherited my sense of decorating. My reply to the warm and lovely was 'I know, isn't it great!!!!"
How easy it is for him to not make me feel good. I know it was unintentional, but the following comment "YOU can decorate anyway you want" felt hurtful, like I wasn't good enough because it wasn't all white lights and pine bows wrapped by Martha Stewart.
How am I still stung by stupid little things like this? I have survived two girlfriends and a whack job MLCer.
I know the whole no one can make you feel bad adage, but what was up with me taking things so harshly?
I did backslide as I looked at him like he was stupid ( I know the look I gib=ve and it is not good.) When I asked if he wanted to cut the tree with D and I ( no commitment, so will proceed without.) and he replied "So you'll get it next weekend and put it up the weekend after'?
I said we always put it up when we get it... and unfortunately gave the look.
But I was out of zen by the time the decorating cracks had been dealt with.
Mantra My house, my decorations It makes me and D feel happy
