Just finished having fun at the park with D3. There was a great spanish family that we played soccer with. It was fun, but also sad at the same time. They have what all of us here want... a real family.
Father, wife, three boys all in a row, and one little girl. I swung two of the boys and my daughter on a tire swing and they jad a blast!
Then one of the boys asked me 'does she have a mommy?', pointing at my daughter. I said yes she does but she is at home. He said 'so how come you two are here on your own?'.
The little boy is so used to doing everything as part of this big family that he could not relate to how you would go to the park without one of the family.
That would have been me when I was his age. And I guess its still me... the boy who believes in a family.
Its so hard to let go of that ideal. So hard. I thought I was over that, and that's why I am back here to learn from everyone and to become that happy guy regardless of my shattered dream. I guess I'm not as over it as I thought.
Tough stuff this. Shattered dreams are hard to overcome.
Me, H-34 now 38 W-32 now 35 T-13 now 18 years M-6 now 9 Daughter 3 years now 7 Bomb 11/27/12 - OM 1 year in house separation Reconciliation 12/2013. Healed now 2017
