Hey lefty, I used to be afraid of journaling but it can be helpful. I also thought there was a wrong way to do it and a right way, that punctuation, grammar and sentence structure were important, there had to be a cohesive story line etc.
Just sit down and write whatever is in your mind even if it's "this makes me uncomfortable", you may be surprised where it takes you.
In any event, you sound good.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss