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[Ambivalent]

As I have shared, I have a child with cp. She is cognately about 5. Before becoming a part of this'disability' world, I had no idea the volume of people and conditions out there. We were very lucky in d's early days to be at John's Hopkins Hospital. As luck would have it we moved to MD when she was 5months old. What an eye opener Hopkins was!! But, it is all ok. d15 is a gift, is a blessing. has taught me(and her brothers) so much that we would have not known otherwise.

Thanks WBW,

Yeah, I've been through a ton of crap. My oldest is/was special needs. Hers were inside and made it more difficult for people to understand. She was a beautiful perfect specimen of a child on the exterior. Think Shirley Temple and Christi Brinkley in one package.
I worked my ass off for that one. Researched out the wazoo and back again. Gave my whole self, and almost lost my other daughter due to it.
I saw what it was doing to #2 and quickly corrected.
Would I change things, some . But mostly the experience taught me more and gave me an insight I would never had learned.

I can still feel the pain of hearing her assessment when in second grade. It was like a death. Knowing she would never find herself until later in life. The painful road she'd have to travel, just because she was born with these issues.

Our marriage has always been stressful, and I was truly hoping that I could share the empty nesting days with my H. That we would reconnect and be richer for it.
Who knows may happen, I'm just observing and plugging along.

We all have weaknesses and strengths. We have to put on our big girl panties when all we want to do is curl up in a fetal position. Wouldn't it be nice to have a mommy right now, give us our lovey, make some cocoa and get a big warm hug?

NOT GONNA HAPPEN

So I guess we've got to mommy ourselves!

Today is a bit better, I LOVE snow and it is making me want to do Christmas ! This is a good sign.

Now enough about me...let's talk about me...NO just being silly.

ALL POINTS BULLETIN

BEEP BEEP BUHBEEP !


Indigo needs some upside the head and some loving. Equal parts. I've already smacked him...some love may be needed...

He thinks because wife SAID she's not coming back, that it is final...

Okay all you vets...your turn!