Imagine how it would feel to be able to Let Go of the hard, heavy feelings. Imagine yourself free. As they come, face them and, then, let them go.
I hold feelings in my body. I think I have years of anger, sadness, tension built up in my shoulders, stomach, chest and neck.
My girls and these boards really help. Writing helps me. Just writing down whatever comes to me, helps me sort out what I'm feeling. Jotting down my dreams also helps, when I do it. I notice my dreams always show whatever is bugging me the most.
My daughters, especially my D19 really challenges me to be my best self. I know she is taking in what I do, how I handle all these roller coaster emotions and it propels me to BE THAT person she Needs/Wants me to be. We try to convey how we are feeling to each other daily. I have to watch that I don't USE her though as a sounding board.
I feel comfortable sharing how I feel, but not necessarily the details about WHY I feel a certain way.
I remember vividly surviving my parents' divorce and wanting so desperately to see my mother rise above it and thrive. I wanted to see her embrace her power and seize the day. Instead, she remarried too quickly and found herself in a terribly abusive relationship for another 25+ years.
My D19 can be overly opinionated and overly judgmental. At the same time, this character trait of hers challenges me to fight for what I WANT for MYSELF and FIGHT for what is Healthy for her to see in me. I'm a grown up and I have the ability to decide which judgments help me move forward and which don't really serve me.
They are watching. We have been given a huge responsibility with our girls. Our H's have increased the odds that they will end up with similar husbands--I really, really want my girls to be up to the challenge, God forbid, it surfaces for them.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
