No life is never black and white. I can live with the anger but my D crying herself to sleep at night makes me forget the panic he was in to leave. As a child who's father died when she was 6 I sometimes think that was easier than what she's going through. My dad didn't choose to leave but hers did and while I didn't get to see him I knew he didn't want to go.
I'm just having a down weekend I guess. PMS, my birthday, my brother's birthday(who died in August), my mom's having a hard time. I guess it's good he's got her this weekend so I can have my pity party and be strong when she comes home this evening.
H-44 Me-43 D9 T-13 years M-12 years BD-8/21/13 Sep- 11/19/13 D in process
