Welcome to the board Sedja.

My advice is to head to newcomer's and post there, there is a lot of traffic and you will find many people who are beginning their journey just like you.

This isn't to say don't take Cadet's advice and please read everything suggested, it will get you moving forward in the journey you must make.

I am sorry to see you here and again, there are wonderful vets (men) who can give you awesome advice.

We also talk a lot about paper divorce and spiritual/emotional divorce and that paper is just that paper.

Many people suffer from depression on here and will be more than willing to share their journeys with you.

GAL, show your wife that you the amazing person she married. Show her our strength and or DR?

That would be my first suggestion if you haven't.

Ruby