ltdmtp, so sorry you find yourself here. Copy and paste this as a new topic in the Newcomers forum, and you will get a ton of great advice and support. Also make sure you keep posting so you can get off moderation!
Hang in there.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
