I am working on not yelling stuff, I know it is hurtful to all of us and I don't want to do it.
I talked to son's counselor today about it briefly. She suggested that we set aside a time each day for both of us to get what we need to off our chest, that it might help. I told her I was not sure if you would be open to that, but that I would let you know. I will continue to explore other strategies on my own.
There were questions posed to me by son about the nature of this situation well before I started yelling stuff... as to why your "needing time and space to figure out what makes you happy" kept you away from home at night. Which friend you are staying with, etc. The night you left us to find a ride to Boy Scouts with short notice started a lot of it. The weekend of your birthday also raised many questions.
Son's counselor is also having to do a dance around certain topics in their sessions so that she does not reveal anything that we have not fully disclosed to him. She worries that being evasive and vague about certain topics may undermine the trust of their counseling relationship, but for the time being still thinks it is better to spare him the details than to undermine what sense of stability he still has for now in the home setting. "No reason to make him worry more than he has to right now" kind of thing. That assessment may change as time goes on.
me-35 WAS-37 T-16 1/2 Son-14 (HF Aspergers) BD,ILYBINILWY,"I met my soulmate": Oct5,2013 "Letting go because I love him, holding on because I love him."