Thanks melissag, dingo & FlyOnTheWall for taking the time to comment.
When I say talk I don't necessarily mean about reconciliation specifically, but anything that would shed light on her perspective. She has said nothing at all since BD and at one point said "she doesn't think she has to justify her reasons" but I am not really sure what her reasons are or anything. I have done a lot of guessing what the reasons are but I have had no information from her whatsoever.
Don't get me wrong I have been putting in the work, I have just been backsliding this past week, mainly I think because she is being much nicer to me. Even then I have still kept it up in front of her, it's only on here that I am showing my vulnerable side.
I really don't want to take anti-depressants.
Me: 34, Wife: 34 Son: 2 Married: 8, Together: 14 Wife moved out 8/25/2013 Divorce papers received 01/10/2014