AJ-relationship with parents was fine. Mom and Dad were totally dedicated to me. Only child. Very little emotion ever shown in our house. Don't remember them ever hugging or kissing. No ILY or anything like that. I must have been one of the few things they had in common. When I left for colleg, things went south for them. Dropped the bomb the Mom was moving out on my 21st birthday. I have never forgiven them for that. It's my biggest weed. Mom moved right into another R and another M. Dad couldn't really function. He was devastated. I was mad at both of them. Dad and I never talked. I've never asked Mom about it. Mom makes me the center of attention in any conversation. When someone is talking about anything, she makes it a story about me. It makes me hella uncomfortable. W has even complained about how much she hates it. It's my Mom, what the heck do I say?
Unresolved with my dad because he died in 2007 and basically made the decision to not fight his cancer. One round of chemo had little effect and he refused any more treatment. I wasn't a very good son during all that and have not forgiven myself.
Mother was always in control and handled everything in the house. Dad was quiet and very much codependent. He loved me very much, always helped with sports teams, though he knew very little. When mom left, I felt abandoned by him. I still have a hard time seeing pictures of me and Daddy together when I was little. That loving, caring man died when Mom left.
I love my mother. She comes to as many of my kids games, plays, functions as she can. At some point, this wall between us must come down. Our family just didn't share emotions.
Enough for now.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
