Just like I thought, h was retreated. H acted like nothing had happened. Before he left, from his night with the kids, he apologized and said that he was just lonely and tired of sleeping with his pillows. For a second today , I let myself think that maybe H does loves me a little bit after all. I should not have gone there. I let myself have expectations even though I told myself not to and I got hurt. I don't know if I am more annoyed at H or myself. Now I am crying. I hate this. I hate how unbelievablely selfish H is.
I REALLY need to detach. I need to put a large gap in between myself and h. Every time I let him inch closer I get hurt.
