Wish me luck with our retrouvaille retreat this weekend. I have a feeling we're going to need it. H keeps making little negative comments here and there.

I've been ignoring and acting 'as if'.

Funny thing this week. I've been feeling a strange sense of distance from my H. Not that he is distancing from me, but I him. I feel a new level of detachment. I don't want to ride the roller coaster, but was still struggling a lot until this week. Maybe just a phase, but we'll see. Hopeful smile I'll give everyone an update and insiders view on Monday.


Me:33 H:35
M: 12 years
D-15 S-6
Bomb: 6-2013
OW: 11/2013
Kids and I moved out: 11/2013 when he continued to lie about affair
Kids and I moved back in 12/2013
H moved out 2/2014