I'm so sorry for the grief you are going through. I can't imagine how hard this must be. I'm glad you keep venting here, there are lots of people to help you and support you.
We love you WR.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.