Dragon, those are some really positive signs from your W. Really! Your expectations are too high, lower the limbo bar a little more. I know you are wanting to see things move faster and be all better, but it doesn't happen that way. Don't take the small things as flukes or anomalies, look at them in a more positive light, like MrC said. She actually went out of her way to contact you, walk with you, email you...can you see that? It's a beautiful thang. I would give anything for a sign that my H actually went of his way to do something with me. You know why? Because he WANTS to. She WANTED to do those things.
My birthday is also coming up soon, and I have already decided that I am going to do something special just for me. I have no expectations that H will ask me what I want, or want to do anything with me, and that's ok. I wouldn't want him to do it if he didn't WANT to, it would feel awkward and unloving if he did it just because I wanted it. Can you treat yourself to something nice? A day somewhere with something you like to do?
We got through Thanksgiving, we can get through Christmas and New Year's!!! Did the sun still come up? yes? Then we should be grateful we are still kickin'!
Hang in there Dragon, sending warm thoughts your way.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.
