Love is a Choice

[JFun51]

I understand why you feel you have to work so hard at this. I did too in the beginning.

Here's the thing: If you're working like crazy everyday to do whatever you think you should do, or what we tell you to do, you'll never make it. Same if you're struggling in pain.

You need to get yourself to a comfortable place and set the cruise control if you're going to have any hope of riding this out. Work on that. Relaxing and getting comfortable with "What Is". Just continue to be who you want to be and be confident about it.

Bottom line is that you'll be fine no matter what happens. You do know this, right?

I have to be honest with you though JF, and please don't take this the wrong way. You did make one big mistake... you should've tried the green beans.

I was in a better place several weeks ago. Latest round of venom and spending an entire week around W with too much interaction has set me back a bit. Holiday shopping, blah Thanksgiving, days off work, rain so I cant run, etc. etc. etc.

BTW. I had the mac and cheese and it was fabulous.

Funny thing about supper last night. One of friends picked up the tab for my whole family. Just reminded me to pay it forward. I did today. Bought a gift card at the sandwich shop and left it at the register for the next several customers. Just told the cashier to use it til it ran out. Felt good.