When you say carry on, do you mean as I was before the backslide? When things were ok?
I am not sure. You are so right about my walls. I know that this is happening to break them down, so I am really trying. My 180's have a lot to do with that.
Part of me worries that it is over for him...but he is in no way saying that. He is also not showing much interest now. So confused!
I am definitely talking this out here, getting it out of my mind.
I think I will go forward with my plan to ask him to the party, I just have to be mentally prepared for him to say no. Actually have no expectations, right?
All I am doing is planting the seed that I am GAL...because he literally thinks I am sitting at my moms house (where I literally have NO friends)doing homework on my computer. He knows I got a new job but it has been a LOOOOONG hiring process, so it will be a surprise to him that I started working.
Can I just mention that social media takes this whole DB thing to a new level? I think I may start a new thread about this. My BF is not on FB, but he is on Instagram. I can see when he "likes" something and if he's been on there and I hate it. I want to throw it out...but I can't, it's like obsessive, and I can see it being a problem for humanity in general!!
Me:35 BF:36 Together 4.5 years lived together 2 years moved out 8-13 still "together" but not together. Confused. D11, D13 (from 1st marriage)
