on the edge pt 2

[jp787]

I feel like I am in so much pain while she is just happy as a claim

She is not happy as a clam, she is going through a very difficult time also. A lot of WAS can appear to be calm and happy, inside they are not.

Obviously I am still in a mindset of wanting this to get repaired immediately. I know that is completely unrealistic.

It can be a very slow process

Dingo,
I think you are doing great! As LAbug said it will get easier. One thing to keep in mind is the more you go dark and the less contact you have with her, it will become easier for you, but when the contact does happen, emotionally it can set you back, fast and hard.

Try to not focus on her or the sitch, try to focus on other things. You doing great, this is not easy