WR, I know you hate this. I really do understand and if I could, I would give you a hug. It's not easy to watch your life change before your eyes.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to send you positive thoughts.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.