T2-You hit the nail on the head with the "front row seat" part. That's what is so challenging for me. Flaunting the behavior, the dress, her own changes, etc. I know that watching the show too closely will burn my retinas. When you are on the front row, its hard to see past the screen.
Your other statement about it being "show time" 24-7 is also getting to me. We don't have to be perfect all the time. I'm struggling with that. That's feeding my superiority problem and that's what W sees. She says its all a F-ing show. There are real fundamental changes to who I am. I just feel like I can't slip up or take a moment off with her constantly there. Very mentally and emotionally taxing.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
