Dingo, good for you for going out as planned, and having the best time you could. I know it's hard to get out and do things, but I think we always feel better when we do!
Great job with NC. You found excuses to contact her but you knew better and kept your resolve. Hopefully each day will get easier.
I think all LBSs struggle with the uncertainty of our sitches. It's one of those things you just need to keep repeating to yourself until you believe it. You have no control over what will happen with your W, so there is no point even thinking about it. Live each day, and control the only thing you can - you.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14