I'm not afraid to take a stand.......

[Whiterose]

I have no effort. I have anger, hatred almost, I get attacked and abused. I get blame.

I don't have many options heather. H wants this divorce to LIVE. How can I possibly fight a man that feels if he stays with me with DIE? I can't. There is no way for me to explain that the mask goes on then you take some deep breaths? He can't even see the mask let alone put it on.

Maybe too soon for me to move on Heather? Sorry, I'm not sure what you're meaning??

The women in my family are strong stock. We're all crazy, full on! Lol, but our faith and strength has moved mountains. My great aunt, the one I ask about dreams, got the slightest bit of news her h was having an affair (she's in small town southern Italy with two kids and he's in canada) she packed up her kids got them on a ship and onto Canadian soil. Not her!! My grandmother's unbelievable faith in God allowed her, with a h and two babies in tow, to sit on the steps of a church, straight off of a ship, and literally beg God to find them a home and jobs.....we still attend that same church. I could go on. Every time one of us is I crisis the women come together and remind you exactly who you are and where you came from and how failure is not even an option. I get a regular litany of last names from days gone by.....not even kidding. Lol if I wasn't strong at this point they would have eaten me alive......scarier thought than facing H let me tell you. Hahaha