White, you are putting into words what I'm feeling.

I know that your H hasn't been gone a year. Maybe it's too soon for you? I applaud how you are handling his insanity and his push for the D.

I feel the same way you do, only I'm at the 2-yr-mark and it feels like Smokey woulda made some changes by now if it was meant to be.

But, what you wrote above, perfectly expresses my doubts now. I would much rather stay married and see this through. What do you do, though, when the other person doesn't appear to want that? When do you throw in the towel?

"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man

“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson