I'm not afraid to take a stand.......

[Whiterose]

I tell people.....you don't understand. As hard as we fought we loved. It was a truly, deeply, madly love. After my third emergency surgery (in less than two weeks) 10 years ago I had to have a nurse sit right beside me in recovery. My heart rate was so high they thought I'd have a heart attack, h couldn't be there he was home with the two boys and it was late. I woke up asking for him. I kept asking. He phoned to check in on me and my heart rate went down to an acceptable beat as soon as I knew he was on the phone........
Can I find someone else whom I will love so completely? Am I too broken now??? When your h refuses to fight for you after everything we've been through. Refuses to fight for your marriage and your children you wonder, no matter that cognitively I KNOW it has nothing to do with me, am I not worth the fight? If a man that I have shared EVERYTHING with thinks I'm unworthy why would any other man think I am??