How long have you been together? any kids? You sound like your resigned to the fact that it might be over- just dont know what to do next.

What do you want? From what you wrote it sounds like you are either a VERY passive individual or your just kind of done.

ME 38 W 37
T18 M5
D3
BD 1/7/13
PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing
2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13
W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13
First mediation appt 12/19/13