Wife Said She's Done

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I have yellow post it note that I folded in half and keep in my wallet
on the outside I drew a simple picture of a Martini glass.....
On the inside (the sticky part- so it seals) I have the following

1/7/12- Your wife just told you that she wanted to leave you. You have been distant and miserable the last 6 months. She loves you but is not in love with you. You might lose your beautiful family because of your choices.

I just took that out of my wallet and opened it up for the first time in a VERY long time to share with you. I wrote that at 11pm about 1 hour after the bomb.

I keep that with me as a reminder. I dont even need to open it because I know its there and what it says almost by heart because when I wrote it I had never been so low- I had just come home from a monday night drinking with my friends.

Was I a drunk- NO! But I certainly used it as an escape- and when I escaped I withdrew, and I withdrew from her.

Was I under alot of stress? hell yes - no excuse

44 days- good start

I know with all of my heart that you would do anything to save your marriage right now....I was there

But the real problem you need to solve right now is this.....
Why did you need to numb yourself with 5-6 drinks a night and all that dip???????

Answer that question and you will be on your way to a better life

OR

keep not drinking and not dipping only in hopes of keeping your family and when the rollercoaster ride begins find yourself drinking again.

This is why Cadet calls this "The gift of time"
use it to fix you

your worth it