Thinking about being in this same situation in February hurts. I feel like this is never going to end. Life has been so hard for so long. I deserve a break. I don't know how to get there...
Feelings are real, but feelings are NOT reliable. This, too, shall pass.
Just because you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel doesn't mean there isn't one. Yours is there, waiting for you...you just have to keep pushing towards it.
Know that and endure well.
-PM
M:12y - BD:12/11 - D:6/13 - 4Ds
"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -MLK Jr.
