Look what the cat dragged in! (TL)

[tigerlily78]

I don't currently have a job. I have put in several applications already to places... some as far back as 6 weeks ago. Some more recently. I really only want to do daytime hours right now so I am not further eroding the life my son is used to.

Also, since H has given himself primary possession of the car, that puts me in the position of being limited to the jobs I can walk to from our house for now.

I am still not sleeping well at all, so that also makes me worry about how well I am going to perform at a job at the moment... I was hoping I would get to that place where sleeping comes easier.

You are right Kate. I should not think about or bring her up... it is just very hard. I see how bad he actually wants to try to make that relationship work and it makes me feel terrible.

I am going to have coffee with a friend tonight. That will be nice. All of my friends are moms, they are busy... getting out to do things is challenging right now. Everyone has good intentions but no time.

I do still run when the weather is decent enough and I have the energy. Not sleeping makes me feel like not running. For a few days I had my appetite back, but today I am back to feeling like nothing I eat tastes any good.

Therapy Monday. Son has his on Saturday. Boy Scout meetings next week, not sure if I will get to go to committee meeting.