I am new here also, but unfortunately not new to the heartache you describe! I just wanted to say, I am so sorry you are going through this and it will get better each day. I know it is so confusing.
What helped me the most early on was exercise. I would do yoga, hot yoga. It was (and still is) hard sometimes, and there are even times when I cry during class. The good thing is it doesn't matter because I am hot and sweaty and no one can tell. It is a great, healthy release...it will help a lot with your anxiety. Just make sure to drink lots of water!
Afterwards you will feel better too.
Just some thoughts and sending hope and hugs your way
Hang in there.
Me:35 BF:36 Together 4.5 years lived together 2 years moved out 8-13 still "together" but not together. Confused. D11, D13 (from 1st marriage)
