Back....again.

[TrentC]

I just wish I knew all the answers. What to say, how to act...

As long as those are the answers you are looking for, you will stay trapped.

What you want are the magic words to say and the things to do that will make him love you and never treat you badly, ever again. And those don't exist.

The "what to say" and "how to act" are being true to yourself and repsecting yourself. And until you spend some time dealing with your issues, you can't hope to repair your marriage—if it even can be repaired at this point.

I honestly don't have anything else to say. I can repeat myself until I'm blue in the face, and you'll just keep ignoring what I'm telling you because it's not what you want to hear.