Journal time...

Since my Thanksgiving backslide, BF has only initiated contact with 2 texts. I have only texted him 2 times also. Prior to Thanksgiving we were texting back and forth regularly again. I just don't understand him.

He would text me I love you, goodnight, how was your day, I know your busy, but I just wanted to say goodnight and I love you...he would text me pics of random stuff that he saw or tell me about his day. Now, nothing.

It was like he was close to being back to normal, and now nothing. It makes me feel really worried, and bad...like I did something wrong.

When we are together, we are very physical...we go out and hold hands, he rubs my leg under the table, etc. Our favorite thing to do is find good places to have good beer. We always toast and he always says "cheers, beautiful."

I got a new job at a very exclusive country club that I will start tomorrow. He tried to act happy for me but said "now you will find a nice sugar daddy there".

Why is he saying these things and spending this time with me and now backing so far off?

My new job is a huge boost to my confidence, because I have been out of work for awhile.

I went back to college, an online college and that has been helping me focus on something else, but BF knows that I am living with my kids at my moms...consumed with school, and therefore I don't think he thinks I have a life. I do need to GAL!!

When I have done social things, he comes to me...like when I went to a friends 40th b-day party on Halloween. He was texting me like crazy. And invited me to his work that weekend.

I hate thinking about what he is doing without me.

Why is this man so confusing?


Me:35
BF:36
Together 4.5 years lived together 2 years moved out 8-13
still "together" but not together.
Confused.
D11, D13 (from 1st marriage)