Limbo is the new normal

[Confluences]

Slow~

You called me out by name ...that made me feel good, so thanks! I am hanging in there, Thanksgiving was not miserable but definitely a burden. My Thursday night poker game got pushed back to Wednesday and it was only 8 players (normally 15 to 18) and the game went until 2am...which was not normal.

I drove to my brother's in-laws for Thanksgiving Day and basically was running every excuse possible in my brain that would be a valid reason for not going during the 40 mile drive there but once I was there it was fine. My Mom mixed me a concoction of Egg Nog, Wild Turkey 101, 2% Milk, and Nutmeg and I was pretty good to go after that drink. Wine got me thru the rest of the day.

So here is where it gets juicy:

My WAW and I got in a pretty nasty argument about 2 weeks prior to Thanksgiving and I was just so bent out of shape that I posted a profile of myself on match.com (we met on that website 10 years ago) and just found out tonight that my Wife has one on there too as she was viewing my profile! As much as I hate to admit it...she was the prettiest girl I have seen to date on there and there are a lot of pretty girls on there. I don't know what to think about her checking out my profile and the only reason I did it was out of spite after our argument and "to act as if" but also to accept reality that if we don't work, I got to get on with it. I have not been out with anyone and don't have a desire to do so right now. It's just weird seeing the person that you love and they're on the same portal that you are on but maybe it will be a reality check for both of us.

Hoping to get some serious debts paid between now and Christmas ($100K+) and that will put a lot of problems in the past, so who knows.

You are in a better spot then I am right now but I still think that there is hope for us. I go to Church on Sundays and I sit by an older Lady who used to work with my Wife and knows her quite well. Anyway, I was running late 2 Sundays ago and forgot to put on my wedding ring (it's the only time I wear during the week.....is to Church Service)....anyway, she grabbed my hand during Church and asked me where it was and why I took it off. I said I forgot it as I was running out the door but it was comforting that she made a big deal out of it.

Christmas is going to be tough but maybe just maybe there is a Christmas miracle somewhere. Not counting on it but that is my final thought for now. Thanks again for asking about me.