Back....again.

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True. And that's exactly what I said to him. This isn't how marriage works. This isn't how our marriage ever has worked. I feel like a criminal that he deals with everyday. It's not a nice feeling to be tricked into lying because yes...I was scared to tell him I vented to my sis and mom.

Now I'm in this position where I feel for how he is feeling but at the same time he found out in a horrible way and I just hate how he always gets to be mad at me. And I seem to always make the mistakes in this marriage. 4 years ago be left me for MY problems, 6 months ago he threatened to leave me again because "I" have a problem with affection, now he isn't sure what's going to happen to our marriage because "I" lied to him and talked to my family about him.

I'm always at a loss. And he feels like he is always the bigger better person in every situation. And in fighting for my marriage to death.