When I do NC or 180 it seems to make a difference. For both. I fall back when she contacts me. Today has been no contact at all. It hurts me.
I have read some today and will continue to.
I work fulltime and have to go home to our house, our life, our pets, our plans, our everything, what was our future.....
Pets are depressed too. It's really hard to do.
I did plenty to push her away. But did plenty of other duties. When things were great they were great. The past few months have been the worst. Stress I carry. Child talk and deciding to. Family and friend issues for both of us. It wasn't all relationship hurdles. We have a long history.
