Linda, I have never been serenaded before - you are fantastic and I love that song.
Does anyone have a habit of vivid dreaming? I know job once said she had premonitions. I don't think my dreams are premonitions, but sometimes they are so vivid they could be memories. And they have on occasion told me something, like someone is in trouble or that good news is about to happen.
This past weekend, I had one of those dreams about Skippy. I can't really describe it but it was dark and wicked. I could not shake it all day, try as I might. By evening, it was still bothering me, so I texted Skippy to ask if he was alright. I had not heard from him in a week since we spoke on the phone.
He texted back that everything was OK at his end and thanks for my concern. I texted back that I was glad (I was). He texted back again: "Thank you for your concern. Really." I did not respond. That night, he called but did not leave a message. I wasn't home to get his call. Without a message, I did not call back.
I feel like I am walking through a mine field. The balance between keeping the door open and not having my own foot caught in it. Is it the holidays that have made him a little lonely and now he is reaching out? Life doesn't look so good on the flip side? I am a nosy person generally, but I sure would give a great deal to be a fly on the wall at his therapist's office. Any insight into this insanity and this agonizingly slow - maybe going no where - dance that we seem to have embarked on. I do not want to try to read his mind. I do not want to feed him ego kibbles.
But am I erring the other way? I thought about responding that of course I would be worried but didn't. Or ask why he thought I would be unconcerned? Is the fact that he questions my concern a good thing? Or was he trying to get kibbles by making me say it?
Talk about being able to run yourself in circles!
And why am I back to feeling it has been a long time since I heard from him when it has only been a few days? I had more patience when it was weeks.
