on the edge pt 2

[dingo]

I am all aboard with the letting go, dropping the rope, opening the cage, etc, etc. I know thats what needs to happen and I know this M is over. I am not using the divorce as a threat to get her to reconsider or come back. I am using it as a way to set her free from me and me free from her. No more boundaries either way, she can do what she likes and I can do what I like. Right now, I am the only one respecting the boundaries and it obviously doesn't give me as free a life as I would otherwise like.

I know its still going to be hard to get through and I do see the opportunity for personal growth and a better, happier life. I do want a new M with whoever, that's something I cant pursue while I am already in one.