I can't believe how hard it it to let go,to get a life. I find myself fighting temptation every waking moment, not to look at her picture or wanting to hear her voice, or just have her acknowledge my existence when I'm on Facebook. The uncertainty of what gods future is for me, brings me to a stand still. I feel like I'm pushing through mud trying to live day by day, moment by moment. Trying to run a business that has suffered because of my marriage problems and make it profitable again just adds to the feelings that I'm not going to make it, that I'm a failure. I keep telling myself that I need to quit thinking about her and stop feeling sorry for my short comings, but they dig in deeper it seems, and mock me. My wife's MLC has triggered my own, I just wish i could ignore her as well as she does me, find myself a band aid like she has, but I can't and won't. as Robert Frost once penned " I have promises to keep And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep."
