I am sure you are scared and hurting, I hope you can find something to ground yourself with. This is just part of what is happening and doesn’t dictate what tomorrow will be.
AS gave you great advice, I agree 100%.
Try to keep your focus on making yourself healthy, you will survive this. As hard as this is, it is what needs to happen and if you keep your focus on making yourself the best you can be then the best outcome will happen, even if it doesn’t seem that way.
Hang in there and keep posting.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy