Cha Cha Cha!!!

I am very much in the same place you are, although H isn't "back" per se.
Bug's line about it not being trust but the "broken trust" really resonated.
H is also capable of lying by omission, and doesn't get that to me it is the same as lying.

The don't ask won't tell adage.

Do I want to know this?
Do I need to know this?
Will this change the path I am on?